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Showing posts with label sweet. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sweet. Show all posts

Friday, 12 February 2010

Cold Turkey....

Many people have mentioned in jest, that the dramatic way in which I have deserted dessert from my diet is tantamount to going "cold turkey". Hmmmmm..... When I think about it I have had headaches, been freezing (even when inside with the heating on) and have had a cold / sore throat / bad chest / runny nose since day 4, and all the Echinacea and Berocca in the world isn't shifting it.... So I decided to look into this "cold turkey"

The wikipedia definition says "cold turkey" is an expression describing the actions of a person who gives up a habit or addiction all at once... Its supposed advantage is that by not actively using supplemental methods, the person avoids thinking about the habit and its temptation, and avoids further feeding the addiction... The supposed disadvantages are... Unbearable withdrawal symptoms from the total absence, which may cause tremendous stress on the heart and blood vessels and — in a worst case scenario — possible stroke or heart failure..."

Ok, so i'm obviously not going to have a stroke, and although very traumatic the lack of dessert style sweet foods to my body will not cause tremendous stress on my heart, or blood vessels or any other such extreme reaction. However, I did research further and among symptoms listed on various websites I found the following which are definitely attributes that I can relate to...

Headache - The first few days I had the worst headaches ever, constant, pulsating, painkiller defeating. My beau was beating me about the head for deserting 'him'.
Loss of appetite - Not loss of appetite as such, but I am decidedly lost as to what to eat at most meals as I am spending most of the time thinking about 'him' and the fabulous meals we used to share.
Insomnia, sleeping difficulty - No sleeping difficulty, but a change in sleeping pattern. I have been sleeping earlier, in order to avoid the late nights when we would frolic. Evenings were our quiet time; while I worked late to meet deadlines my sweet, sweet beau, was usually my nocturnal companion
Paleness - I did have a conversation with my mother that went something along the lines of... Her: Have you got something on your face? Me: No. Her: You look grey, maybe you should wear some makeup... I guess that could be classed as a certain kind of paleness...
A state of confusion and hallucinations (visual) - This definitely happened to me on more then one occasion in Asda when I had to walk past him on the shelves. I have also been slightly more random and off centre then usual, but this could also be put down to age…
Agitation - I am having extreme difficulty concentrating and have been quite short with people (more so than usual) as he is not here to soothe or calm me.

So I guess I’ve gone dessert "cold turkey" could I go in the Guinness book of records with the first known case??

On the plus side:
I have been eating more fruit - i'm sure i'm hitting my 5-a-day or more and will be healthier for it... Who cares!! Fruit is a lame, substandard barely even sweet replacement; it also makes me pee a lot!
I have been told my skin looks clearer - yea so what!! Clearasil is a remarkable product that I enjoy buying and Boots appreciate me buying it!
I have been going to the gym more - mainly to relieve the agitation (see cold turkey above) and constant need to look in Asda, Waitrose, M&S magazine's and trawl through website upon website drooling over desserts and restaurant menus'.
I have taken Berocca daily - sometimes twice a day in as little water as possible, because it is sweet and delicious and is a vitamin that will prevent me from getting scurvy...

But the end is nigh... The morning of Sunday 14th February 2010 will be one of the happiest mornings of my year so far. I am beside myself with the sweet, delicious anticipation. I have the most amazing day planned. And, no, it is not because it’s Valentine's Day!! I shall be spending it alone, reacquainting myself with 'him'.

It will be the morning of the end, but also the morning of a new beginning, with my bestest, most beloved friend, who I will love and appreciate so much more when he is once again by my side...


Monday, 1 February 2010

Last night I dreamt of San Pedro....


Actually I didn't dream of San Pedro (unlike Madonna). I dreamt of Dessert... Delectable, Delightful, Desirable Dessert in all it's Damned Deliciousness... Cupcakes, gu puddings, banoffee pie, tiramisu, apple crumble, pecan tart thingy’s from the dessert deli down the road, eton mess, haagen dazs ice cream, fresh cream & strawberry victoria sponge, syrup sponge pudding, apricot swiss roll, caramel waffles, hot fudge sundae, krispy kreme caramel dreamcake donuts and… Me!! Eating it all.

I have never dreamt of food before, well certainly not in such a memorable way. But I guess this is because I’ve never restricted my food intake quite so significantly. Yes, i've done a couple of failed fruit and water only detoxes, and there have been failed attempts at eating 5-a-day, but never for any meaningful length of time. It has been a full week, which is 7 whole days, 168 hours and minutes I don't even want to think about since I started my 'no dessert or confectionary type foods challenge' and I am dreaming, in a full pantone spectrum of colours, about what I am missing. Regular dieters must literally wake up drooling and chewing their pillows on a regular basis.



I do find it quite poignant that chocolate did not feature at all in my dream, not even in a supporting role. Which leads me to believe that all these years of chocolate 'loving' have been sheer peer pressure and media hype. Maybe when I go back to being the almost normal version of me, who eats sweet things on a semi-regular basis, rather then as the main food group I can eliminate the 'I must have chocolate' phase altogether. Hmmmm.... Could I really do without those Lindt Lindor balls that melt so tantalisingly on the tongue?? Or that M&S Organic Rose flavoured chocolate that is the most amazing thing... Not so sure. Maybe the chocolate dream is saving itself for another night :-)

Sunday, 31 January 2010

Sugar Free...


So I come to you 6 days into my 21 day 'no sweet things' and 'no shopping' challenge. I decided to do it as I approach a milestone birthday as a bit of a lifestyle overhaul and to remember to keep myself in check and as an attempt to reign in the constant splurging. The first few days I suffered a terrible constant headache as I am used to eating sweet things constantly. I'll just point out that amazingly I am a size 8 and have no weight, skin or any other health concerns...

However, I will usually wake up to a muffin, donut, pancakes with syrup, pastry or similar food that falls into the breakfast food category by the skin of it's teeth. I'll follow that with a caramel cappuccino from Starbucks (with 2 sugars) and will continue throughout the day happily eating whole packets of biscuits, 3-4 cakes, donuts, unlimited chocolate bars and cans of pepsi max (it says sugar free, but tastes the sweetest). I will then when home have dessert pretty much every night after dinner. Gu puds and Haagen Dazs being my favourite, but I don't discriminate and as long as there is no custard and it falls into the dessert category, i'm good to go. I must state that I am not proud of this and only realise how extreme it is when other people point out the contents of the dustbin under my desk, or ask for a biscuit only to be told that they're finished :-(. I pay no attention to the copious amounts of sweet foods I consume and am just answering the call of my sweet teeth.


I have made it through my first 6 days, which have included the weekend, which has been the hardest obstacle so far. I'm actually quite pleased with myself, as many people have actually bet money against me :-( but i'm determined to do it for myself more than anything else as I have been a slave to my sweet teeth for too long. I also reckon i'm saving loads by not stopping in M&S for their plum and cherry crumble (which has become my newbest friend since christmas). I'm gonna put the money I save in a jar and have a dessert binge when I get to that landmark birthday :-)


Will let you know how the 'no shopping' has been going another time.